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Don't know what to expect anymore. Don't want to expect. Feel kind of ashamed of myself, being so affected by something so small. Really sorry for being so selfish today. But once and for all, I finally know myself inside out. melissa at 10:04 PM On a random note: I looove our coach's kids!  Esp the son!!! Sunshine family. I need to secure a father for my kids soon haha! The son who's so eager for hugs, he will actually stretch out his arms and nod when u ask to carry him. 
melissa at 11:13 PM If there was some kind of cap on wishes, I think I'm close to exhausting mine already. But this time it's different. It's no longer wishing for things which are out of reach. Or playing for others. This time I really believe. Oh belief please do not let me down. Please let the floodgates come only at the very end of the season, for they be tears of joy. No more heartache, coz this time I'd really have to live with it. For all the others out there fighting for the same dream, for that final shot at glory, let's go all out! For it's worth it. melissa at 4:48 PM Things are looking good! :D P/s I hope I don't jinx it melissa at 11:39 PM TAKE A DEEP BREATH. Saw a dog got hit by a car at full speed. Horrific x 100000. Esp cause I was like "Is it viper is it viper?! ( My neighbour's dog who went missing a few years back)" Then the dog dashed across the road and this freaking mercedes rammed into it and didn't stop. Heard the crack even though I was sitting in the car w the windows closed. It was like slowmotion the dog's body dented in and he very very slowly climbed to his feet and got off the road. Maybe I'm reeling from the after effects. I think not. ANOTHER DEEP BREATH and I'm good to go! melissa at 9:48 PM This is really amazing! I hope he gets back from his tour soon and releases the damn album. Newest favourite song, In Your Atmosphere- John Mayer *** One month to the comps! Yesterday's VJ match kind of like, put the soul back into me I think. Was so tired and breathless yet had to keep shouting. Although it might not be our collective best yet, i think it's still a huge improvement from the rut we were in, and a step forward. There's consolation and motivation in the knowledge that we are playing for a shot to prove our worth and as testament to all the heartache and toil we've been through together, not merely to be the winning team. melissa at 12:17 PM I have hopped onto the mugger, 200 blah blah days to A's, bandwagon. And I am super happy! Most productive day in the year. Just kept talking to myself and forcing myself to not rest and just keep doing work. Didn't even LIE DOWN once, and it's a monday! Fantastic start of the mega hardworking streak! All my work is done( even did phys tutorial in advance! ) , notes consolidated (for lit), all my worksheets are neatly filed and stacked up, read ahead for econs :) :) :) Must catch up on complex numbers and I'm complete! Every time I cancel off one task, the happiness bubble grows! Even practised stinking piano coz I made a resolution to pass. Am resolved to start reading the papers every day too. And now, I must go mop the damn floor. melissa at 10:11 PM |
