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My toes are going crazy. The 2 big toes have been going NUMB for 4 days already. ( No this is not some kind of code, it's for real) I keep thinking that the blood circulation has been cut off and keep checking to see if my toes have turned black, or white. And I keep imagining them dropping off, or having to be amputated. Now there's this twanging pain in my right ankle it feels like it's gonna break too. I'm in paranoia overdrive. Thursday night I was soooo cold, with fever and everything, I thought I was gonna die from the HK influenza thing. Didn't dare to go to sleep coz I imagined myself seizing! Some days later I read the newspaper and it was coz it was 21.8degrees on Thursday night -.- There was this scary red, bee-looking, insect that was hovering in and out of my room for 2 days. Was wondering if it stung my toes and that's why they turned numb. And then I imagined that it was the chikungunya mosquito and I was gonna die, again-.- Kept thinking whether I got that word right, in my semi-conscious state. Amazingly, I did! Had this curry fight with this Mark guy in my dream. Just kept splashing hot stuff on him as well as jab him with a fork. He just stood there and when I was done, he took this 2-prong fork and jammed it through my left bicep. Went in through the top and came out through the bottom. Damn scary, I could feel my arm turn cold in real life as I watched the blood flow out. "...I do have beliefs that there are serious downsides to it all, but on the other hand I truly have the need and desire to be a part of your lives as I wish you to be a part of mine. My greatest moments in life have always been the moments when I connect with people. On or off the stage I believe that is my purpose. This is not an “online presence” for me, it is my inspiration. To me, fans are not followers, fans are the fuel. You will never get some bullshit update or response from my label pretending to be me. You will get me. That being said it may not be as glitzy or planned, but in the words of the great 50 cent, “me, I’m just me.” "- Rstar.net :D melissa at 2:37 PM |
