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I hate this, this uncertainty. About life, and death. Every time I think about it, whole body just freezes up and can't continue doing what I was doing. That time it was the Helen Keller essay and now it's the prediction that a super volcano is gonna erupt soon. And it's the worst disaster of all, whole world's population will die. The last time Lake Toba Volcano erupted the world was sent into an Ice Age. And one erupts every 2000 yrs and one did around 2000 yrs ago so... Ok, so I got damn scared and wanted to cry. Is this why people turn to religion? For the belief that there is something after death, a sense of certainty so you won't have to live life worrying about what's gonna become of you. Times like these I wish I had a faith. Really admire those who can face the concept of death so easily. As for those who commit suicide either they really believe that there is something better after death or they were really living in hell on earth. But for me I cant imagine what could ever be worse than death. 1st honest honest post I've had ever. It's pathetic, but the computer soothes me. The moment I get scared I switch this on and everything seems ok. Went to research and some say that a supervolcano erupts once every 100 000 yrs and not EVERYONE will die, but if it's Toba than probably yes. But am feeling better. This is some form of escapism. Only believing in the things I want to. melissa at 9:02 PM |
