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The 3rd time im attempting to start a post. I feel like doing a self evaluation for 2006 too. 2006 was a crazy year to say the least. It all started when I logged onto asknlearn and got my class allocation, 3H. I still remember how terrified I was. I cant remember who it was I called to rant and scream. And when the first day of school finally came, I remember trying to play for time so that I wouldnt be trapped in that dreadful classroom with all those scary people. It was a relief to know that I had dependable Geraldine in my class. I remember going to recess on the first day with her and asking Xin Hui along coz she looked so lost and thought she was a PRC. it would be a lie to say that everything went by in a blur. It crept along at a snail's pace. Amazing race, painting of classroom, getting to know people. But after the first week, everything sped up and never stopped moving. I met Jia Min through I dontknowhow. And than we went for LA lectures and suddenly we were sitting with Cupcakes and next thing there was Nomads and after that the social circle kept expanding and there was Hot-ties. And suddenly 3F became a regular fixture in my life. And suddenly Team04 was connected in every way possible. This year was also loaded with lots of drama which I cant elaborate on here. I think it was towards the middle of the year that I started enjoying school a lot more. Started becoming more dedicated to volleyball, went for evey training. I remember skipping trainings a lot at the beginning of the year, and from what i read, cherie and zx were really angry with me. Actually i didnt like going for training then as the seniors were still in the midst of their competitions and I felt that I was wasting the coach's time. And if I didnt go, the coach would have one less person to train. And see, true enough after the competitions i went for trainings religiously. Remember being really exasperated with myself and somehow I got over that and started liking the coach, liking trainings, and improving i hope. Became much more comfortable with the team. I remember last year there were several conflicts within the team and even I bore grudges agauinst some. But everything was smoothened out and gradually I learnt that I could really depend on this bunch of people and trust them. Something I very rarely do. As for friends, the people I got to know were really crazy and fun. No doubt they spoke a little too loudly and weren't stellar students nor good influences, but so wasn't I. We did way out stuff like going trick or treating and crashing 5 star hotels. I am indeed grateful for every single one of them including my classmates. It was only recently that we bonded I think. Especially during chalet. I finally warmed up to them and am looking forward to a new school year with those guys next year. And lastly, studies. I think it's safe to say that it's normal to see a drop in grades when in transtition from Sec 2 to 3. Unless you are Cherie or some other genius of course. Wasn't exactly disappointed in my grades or anything. But I am disappointed in my lack of will power. It seems that I can never finish anything that I start. For example, I'll do 6 out of 9 questions of my assignment and thus, not pass it up or resort to copying. As of next year, I Must do all my work on time and attain a GPA of > 2.8. The latter isn't an option. Coz if I fail to attain that, my future will probaby be ruined. As for my personal goals, short term at least. I must train, really really hard. I must not let everyone down. Coach seems intent on drumming into my head that if I fail to perform, the whole team will die. I must manage my finances wisely. Watch my diet. CLEAR MY ROOM. Be neat and organized. Mature, grow up. As for long term goals, I really dont know. Every night when I close my eyes, I see millions of jumbled up words pulsating in my mind. And when i try to clear the mess what I see next is a glaring white space with a few tiny little words here and there. It's significant of my life I think. There's so much inside of me which I want but dont know exactly what they are, and when I try to grab hold of one, I register a blank. As of now, today. I need money, I know I shouldnt obsess about it. But once I get an idea I wont let go of it so easily. So, im starting a small business even though my dad is convinced that I'll fail. melissa at 10:01 AM |
